A wordlessness stuns me as despair drowns me. Darling,What have I done to our love?
I broke open the brittle shells in avarice for pearls that were still growing. Perhaps these are not the best of my words.. Yet they are the truest. This evening, I regress. I play the old songs. I see the old pictures. I read our old writings. This evening I see the distance gone, in horror and shame. I see an intimacy that smothers us..I loved you from the other side of a veil. Now I have come closer and I cannot see you without seeing myself. I wish to return because I loved you better from the other side. I wish to grow distant. Go farther away..I want to see you on the other side of the horizon. Unreachably far. I want to enclose myself in a breathlessness where I can love you like gasping for breath.
Be a stranger to me..once again.